Sunday, August 24, 2014

毕业了!



上个星期日,我终于在拉曼大学林良实礼堂毕业啦!

想起那时和我的好兄弟一起一起搭飞机来到西马,时间真的飞逝阿

虽然只是个学士文凭,不过对我来说,真的是一个小成就,因为我真的有付出,或许付出的大部分不在学业吧。

就说一说毕业当天的情景吧,那天早上六点钟,自己就自然醒了 (当然啦,大日子嘢!)换上西装,然后六点四十五分就到学校了,到了学校每个毕业生就会各自进入自己课系被安排得房间,里面有学校的职员或学生帮忙毕业生整理毕业生们的毕业袍。记得那时每位同学都看起来很兴奋,自拍的自拍,照镜的照镜,我也不例外。哈哈


当大家都准备好后,我们就被叫到教室外面去排队,准备进入礼堂,大家排队时还紧张地叫前面的同学检查自己的毕业帽,头发啦,还是什么的,不久,我们队伍开始前进啦,我不懂怎么用华语表达,we marched from block L into Grand Hall。当我们开始前进时...


天啊,我从没想过会有那么澎湃的感觉,望着前面的 Grand Hall,毕业生们了两行地走向毕业礼堂,那时的感觉,真是前所未有的感觉,一定要自己毕业当天才能明白的。进入礼堂时,走在红地毯上,播着澎湃的音乐,两侧的家长及观众为我们鼓掌,远方还看到我家人兴奋地跟我挥手。:)

讲师,教授,以及贵宾也陆续进入礼堂,真的很有很隆重的感觉。


听了校长还有嘉宾的演讲后,就是我们毕业生等待已久的一刻啦: 拿毕业证书!

毕业生们一行行起立,走向舞台,等待自己的名字被叫,就上台拿自己的证书。就在这时我偷拍了台下一下下 :D


被摄影团队的工作人员整理了毕业袍以下,我就上台了。整个上台的时间只有五秒钟,就那五秒钟的荣耀,哈哈。当我听到 院长,Dean, Faculty of Science 念我的名字时,我便走向拿督斯里黄家泉,我清楚听见他说 

“Congratulations"

之后握手,接证书,看镜头,说谢谢,走掉

屏幕同时显示出我的相片和之前写的毕业感言,是给爸爸妈妈的。

下台走回座位时被女朋友拍一拍, 在台上的照片还没拿到 :)


颁发完证书后,就轮到我的好朋友 Bobo 和她的搭档 Joshua 唱歌给我们听啦。


他们唱的歌都很垂泪,加上台上两侧的屏幕播放的片断更加催泪,说真的我有努力地忍着别掉泪,我们用手中的 scroll 当成荧光棒举起来挥着,真的很有很有感觉。


之后,就完毕了!我们正式毕业了!走到礼堂外面有好多家人朋友在等待我们拍照。

Dean 门四兄弟和 Assoc. Prof Dr Lim

Zoo Family 全家福


Sabah gang, 这其实是星期六 Jack 的毕业典礼。嘻嘻

劳苦功高,亲爱的女朋友 :)


还有我亲爱的家人!那天看到爸爸妈妈很开心,真的很心满意足。:)

还有很多很多很多照片,只能谢谢那天前来恭贺我,甚至送我花的朋友们。小弟真的感到大家的呵护 :)


我总共收了五束花 + 一盒巧克力 + 一梳香蕉+ 一朵永远不会谢的纸折花,谢谢 Clement, Richard, Raye, Si Nan, Zoo Family, Yi Kuan,爸妈!

这大概是一个男生一辈子里唯一能收到花的时吧 :)

就这样,我毕业了,就好像发了一场梦。

毕业了,就代表我们的大学生涯落幕了,可是却意味着新的阶段即将开始。

这四年里,我真的学了很多很多,也成长了很多,路途中有些难关,有些阻碍,可是这些都让我变得更强壮。虽然很多人说,你不需要一个文凭也能成功,不过我觉得在大学生涯里除了学业以外,能够体验的能够学习的真的还有很多很多,这些经验证的是无价的,事在于你如何的度过。四年的大学生涯一眨眼就过的了,你如果什么都没做,它就这样过去了。大学里有些人拼了命读书,有些人拼了命玩,有些人拼了命搞活动还有很多很多种人,不过我说,在做什么都好,最重要要知道自己未来想要什么,当下就得做你应该做的事,就算还不知道自己想要什么,也该未雨绸缪,把自己准备好,好让当自己终于等到机会时,就能胜任了,毕竟机会是给准备好的人。

我一直都很期待我的毕业典礼,是因为我想要见证我这四年来的付出和努力的成果,得来不易,所以我特别珍惜。我常在课业最繁忙的时候去办活动这个那个,加上去打工,最后一年时为了毕业论文赶死赶活,结果常常搞得睡觉的时间都所剩无几,就算难得有时间睡觉,有时还会因为压力太大而睡不着。我的时间不如别的学生多,所以不能常常去玩,去喝茶,结果常常把自己给隔绝起来,让朋友都觉得我是怪人,哈哈。不过我想说,什么事情都得取舍,一个人不能拥有一切,必须做出牺牲,什么都想要,只会什么也得不到。我想说,这些事我都没白做,我“毕业无憾” :)

对我来说,人只活一次,我想要的,只是我变老时,能够有些美好和骄傲的回忆让我回味回味,让我有故事告诉我的子孙,让我能够在离开这世界的前几秒,蓦然回首,微笑地说“这辈子真的没有白活啦”,让我离开后还是有人还记得我。我想要这个世界,因为有了我,变得有一点点不一样,这,就是我所谓的成功。

特别谢谢女朋友让我一到金宝的惊喜,真的很用心,也谢谢毕业当天当我的摄影师,谢谢你,爱你!


朋友们,毕业快乐 :)

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Review for Twenty Thirteen

Time flies with the blink of an eye, the world didn't end during 2012 and 2013 flew just like that, woohoooo, another brand new year is coming! As usual, it's important to make a review of the year, so that we can make self reflection, have a flashback of what we've done.

2013 is an important year, because i've turned 21! I was once a kid day dreaming about when is the day that i'll grow up and then with just another blink of eye i'm officially an adult, now i can gain access to casino, vote for election, get married and what my mom always used to tell me since i was 18:

"When you're below 18 years old and you've committed crime, you're too young for prison, you'll be sent to boys' home, now you are 18, you can go to jail for anything wrong you've done, and that's it for your life, so be very careful on every steps you are taking"

Well, mom really got her point, and this freaked me out every time when she talks about this seriously, reminded me that i'm really grown up, and will take full responsibility on everything i do, i'm so gonna tell my kids in future. Yes mom, i will a responsible man =)

Looking back at what i've done in 2013, nothing much actually, but one of the memorable thing is that i've hold the first Faculty of Science Prom Night in UTAR, that makes me a founder? Haha. It's all because of this dream team. =)


It turned out to be a great success, just want to prove that science students aren't lab rat, that's all. haha. Lotsa memories with this, which will be not be forgotten, but to serve as a lesson and experience in the challenges i am facing in the coming days. 

The rest of 2013, nothing too much actually, chasing up with my studies which i've left out like always, and the ended up with bad results, guess i'm just losing my passion to lab work, really want to go outside the world and see more, it's like an Ironman suit is tired of being only a prototype, desperate to go out and combat. And then i've waited, and waited and now, i'm only one semester away from graduation, and then i realized, i have someone that makes me want to stay here longer, because if i've left, i'll be missing her like hell!


Here's the biggest event of mine in 2013, i'm in love! 

So amazing how we are brought together, knew each other, worked together, getting familiar, fell for each other, getting closer, and closer, really close, and get together. =)

She's indeed someone who is very special for me, which made me feel like i'm really really so lucky and so blessed to have her. Just want to tell you, i love you! In the coming semester, let's create more memories, before distance pull us apart again =)

new year resolutions? 
Erm, just wish that everyone around me are happy and healthy, especially those i love. And hope that i'll find my way in my career. I know it's too early to wish for this, but it's almost time, graduation is near. OHHH AND AND AND! Please let me finish my final year project smoothly! That's all =)

I want to thank everyone who've been with me in 2013, every single one of you, doesn't matter in what way you've been with me in 2013, good or bad, whether you have left or you're still with me, THANK YOU, because without any of you guys, it won't be the exact same 2013 i had.  =)

Last but not least.....



HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Sunday, October 13, 2013

思念

一颗思念的心,有着见不到的苦,却又有着相思的甜

军人的想家,或是分割两地的情侣,这些思念只有当局者才能明了

卧室里的床,已变成是个想念着心爱的人而辗转难眠的地方

相聚往往因为难得,所以才会变得如此可贵

你,有想念的人吗? =)

Friday, October 4, 2013

我疯了

不懂几时开始,我不由自主地疯了,我真的疯了 ._.

Monday, September 23, 2013

After i said "moving on"

It's been really long since i touched my blog, it's not as popular as last time, or it's now not at all? I am living in an age that Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, Tumbler took over. Many places for me to express my feelings, so i often forgot about the blog. But well, this was my most "holy" place as i used to blogged a lot and jot most of my life down. Nevertheless it's no longer popular, one good thing, things written here, not much people will reach. Haha. Alright, i should try to blog more often, i really want something to read about myself when Alzheimer attacks me in the future.

So i am now Year 3 Trimester 1, errr, technically Trimester 2, because sem 1 just ended. Never really thought that i could make it that far, i was a foundation freshmen who fell from his bike and bleed all over his leg back then, so yeah, i made it. I didn't do well in my academic, frankly, only an average Chemistry student who wants to pass and didn't want anything too much from the field of Chemistry. Picked Pure Chemistry because of my interest during foundation, but the further i go, the more i feel like i am into other stuffs like negotiation, publicity, public speaking, marketing, and of course MONEY. (Yeah, who doesn't?) Never regretted for choosing this course because i really believe in this Christian saying "God always has the best way for us", yeap, i will not be like what i am today, or think like what i am thinking, if one single choice wasn't made the way it was back then, so i am grateful, i am still finding my way, i will make sure i will find my way to success. =)

Earlier this year, had some storms of my life, one of the hardest time - broke up
Those days right after broke up were like some of the days that i wouldn't want to go back, i can still remember the pain, the struggle, jealousy. regrets, guilty, angry and everything, i believe when i felt these, she felt this as well, so those days were really bad for both of us. Now things seem to get better, or i can finally say i am over it, there are words that i wished to tell her, but i think it's best not to tell her by face. =)

"I am grateful for what we are now, after all those, we are finally friends, or more like an acquaintance, at least we don't have to talk to each other like with a lot of hatred. Thanks for all the memories, i still remember all of them. Sorry if i left you pain and sorrow. I am glad to see you got over those down times of your life, and even happier to see you mixing with a group of new friends. Even though we are no longer lover, i am still wishing all the best for you, from the bottom of my heart. You are always more than an average friend to me, the most familiar acquaintance ever. Hope that one day we can talk and laugh again. =)"


Love comes and go, some goes to friends. They said i have a lot of friends, well, i think only knew a lot of peoples. Inevitably, some of the close friends, aren't that close with me nowadays. I always approached these close friends like i knew them very well, like they are so going to miss me as i miss them so much, but sometimes, from the way they respond, i can tell that we have gone very far. I totally understood that, as we grew older, we'll have works, our own life, new friends and stuffs, it's hard to remained who we were, friends are still friends, when the sky turns dark they'll still need to go home, i understand all these, it's just a little sentimental to watch things in life changing like this. As more peoples i knew, i am not too sure about peoples who like me, but there is definitely an increment on peoples that hate me. HA! This is sentimental too. I kept asking myself, is there anything that I've done wrongly?? Why would these peoples hate me? Then i asked around, and a close friend of mine told me this:

 "Just be yourself, friends come and go, at the end of our life there is only your kids and wife, and some close friends"

Well, he is right. I tried my best peeps, i can't help if you really want to hate me.

I am really thankful for some peoples in my life that gave me encouragement and strength when i needed, i just wanna said, i really appreciate you guys. And YOU, even though we didn't knew each other for long, but it's really really good to have you supporting all the while. I have no idea how we got so close, but it's really a blessing for me. Thanks. =)

Will need to do some navigation, i was sailing blindly, but i will be back on course soon. =)

Friday, April 12, 2013

二十一岁的郑伟杰

好久没有更新部落格了,其实很多时候想要写一些东西,可是觉得还是等事情沉淀下来,有结果了,再写了,哈哈。可是,我现在想写了。

2013 年转眼间就过了 1/3, 时间过得他妈的快, 快得有点跟不上,周围的人事物,变得,我根本追不上,我呢? 或许也变了一些吧。

终于的终于,那时兴奋地踏进小学一年级的郑伟杰,转眼间已经 21 岁了。好不可相信呢。

二十一岁了呢,有没有金锁匙,你还是成人了,可以投票了,可以进赌场了,可以结婚了等。总而言之,要对自己的所做所为负责,要学会当机立断了!

二十一岁生日呢,我过得昏昏迷迷,被一群好朋友灌醉到不像样,去到哪里就吐到哪里,这是我第一次喝醉,也会是我最后一次,喝醉的感觉,真的不好惹。


谢谢 Sabah gang 特地来怡保给我惊喜,也谢谢大家的精心策划,尤其是我亲爱的 Bernard... <3 nbsp="" p="">
我喝到烂醉 =.=

生日很难忘,又好多朋友帮我庆祝,让我觉得我真的真的很幸福,可是,还是觉得少了一个人,一个很重要的人... =)

一万个感谢谢啦朋友们,我生日很快乐,爱你们 =)

还有呢,我的也圆了我一个大学生涯的一个小梦想: 举办一个属于我的活动

没错啦,就是 1st FSc Night - Grandioso Night! 如果你不懂,这个 event 的 chairman 就是本少爷啦!

这个 event 呢,很幸运,找到了一群很厉害的 committees, 让整个 event 搞得有声有色,也有了很不错的口碑,真的,谢谢他们。




谢谢 Bobo 当我的 Vice Chairman, 真的帮了我很多,尤其是很多的决定,她很厉害!希望能够跟她再合作。

 还有很多东西需要学习,有些东西处理得不是很好,不过我在学习啦。

还有呢,想要谢谢一个很重要的人 =)
沛纹呢,帮了我好多好多,她是我第一个兴高采烈告诉的人,谢谢她鼓励我,叫我想做就做,也谢谢她容忍了我烦恼时的脾气。我想说呢,没有她,就不会有这个 event。告诉你们我举办这个 event 的理由,我觉得你们会笑。哈哈。所以,不告诉你们。总之,谢谢你沛纹... =)

Event 过后,功课还有生活真的过的一团糟,还在努力地补救,希望真的救得回吧。

二十一岁呢,好多好多东西都变了!变得,我有点无法接受。哈哈。常常有很多情绪的纠结,不具名的悲伤,老实说,真的不好过。=)

内疚,生气,失望,伤心,心疼,矛盾,这些情绪纠结到,我有点分不清楚它们了。偶尔,真的不知道自己心里在想什么,纠结到,不懂如何说出来,唯有可以逃避。其实,在对于错,是于不是之间,有一个灰色地带,而站在这个灰色地带的人,是矛盾的人,是常说着“顺其自然”的人,是被责备不能当机立断的人,可是有多少人了解站在这里的心情。或许做不了决定时,“顺其自然”,会是个最好的决定。

偶尔希望可以离开这里一下,回家,找回最原始的自己。

其实,内心深处有一个隐藏在很深很深的一个地方的我,而那个地方,好像从来没有被任何人进入,或许,我一开始就为它上了一个很坚硬的锁吧,一个连我自己也不懂怎么解开的锁。

我可以很搞笑,很幽默,整天嬉皮笑脸的,一副不正经的样子,可是想不到也是会有在枕头上掉泪的时候。自责,比被责备,来的痛苦一百倍。

可是,痛苦的不只有我一个人,我自己,算得了什么呢。我只希望,衷心地希望,我在乎的人,我爱的人儿啊,开开心心的。谢谢那些愿意听我讲我那永远表达不清的情绪的人。=)

现在呢,努力地学习变更好,曾经觉得自己很厉害的事情,经过几度考验后,发现,其实自己也没有那么厉害啦,回去练个几年再说吧。哈哈。

还有,最近真的越来越娘了,超容易掉泪,妈妈的一通电话,朋友的一句关心,感动的短片,足于让我视线瞬间变得模糊。可是,我没有让任何朋友看过我哭!哈哈!如果你是曾经看过我哭的人,那你一定是我最亲密的人。=)

未来好多事好迷茫,摸不着,可是有些事,我却看得很清楚, 比高清电视更清楚: 我以后,一定要当一个特别的人。我发誓!XD

大考要到了,要收拾心情,要做好自己了。其它的事,顺其自然就好。=)

沛纹,加油 =)